Finding God
Humble Prayer Partner
Needing to understand if I am on the right path. I am in a small church, good strong believers almost 2 years though a Christian 6 years, I have learnt so much from my my pastor through basic yet all from the Bible and if all started to make for sense and I have grown... Yet I am hard work as its being tough road to get to this point were Jesus is my life!
I want more and more of wanting to be so close to him, and even though I fall at times, I know immediately to run back ! I have been an addict, will always be, suffering a lot from depression, anxiety , get control of it, but it keeps creeping back... I live with my sister who gets drunk everyday and find it very toxic and damaging to me.. No choice at the moment to leave. She doesn't not believe in my type of life and always trying to knock me down, emotional abusive, very bad at times that it makes me want to die! Is this spiritual warfare, as I feel I don't have enough strength to fight it.. I live in constant fear... I just want peace the kind I feel with God.. Which I get mocked about. God has being doing a lot in my life lately and I am in awe as I don't understand .
why me as I am not good enough! Yet when he uses me to help overs to spread his word and they want to follow Jesus .
please would you pray for understanding and to keep my faith, not allow others to try take me away or hurt me and he is my life now and forever thank you
I want more and more of wanting to be so close to him, and even though I fall at times, I know immediately to run back ! I have been an addict, will always be, suffering a lot from depression, anxiety , get control of it, but it keeps creeping back... I live with my sister who gets drunk everyday and find it very toxic and damaging to me.. No choice at the moment to leave. She doesn't not believe in my type of life and always trying to knock me down, emotional abusive, very bad at times that it makes me want to die! Is this spiritual warfare, as I feel I don't have enough strength to fight it.. I live in constant fear... I just want peace the kind I feel with God.. Which I get mocked about. God has being doing a lot in my life lately and I am in awe as I don't understand .
why me as I am not good enough! Yet when he uses me to help overs to spread his word and they want to follow Jesus .
please would you pray for understanding and to keep my faith, not allow others to try take me away or hurt me and he is my life now and forever thank you