Anonymous
Beloved of All
Tired of so much adversity, constant depression, health issues, financial needs. Nothing has been good in my life for many years in spite of being thankful and helping others always. Since I was a child even. I miss my only friend and my reason for living - my mother. God took her home and my life hasn't been the same ever since. I think of her non-stop. She was my only reason for living.
I've been praying for years to be married and to have a family of my own. God's word assures me its not good to be alone and "he who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor..". I've sewn into ministries and helped so many people. Now I'm the one in need financially. I need a new car mine has 300K miles and needs replaced. At least $30K in repairs/upgrades to my home. Where are you God who promises you will hear from heaven and answer? I dont remember the last time any of my prayers were answered. This further makes me question my faith. It's definitely shaken to the core.
This depression and sadness is overwhelming. Debilitating. I can hardly get out of bed. So much more that I'm dealing with but it doesn't matter. Hope deferred makes the heart sick. Pray God will take me home soon. Nothing good on this earth for me. Tired of always being alone. Tired of trying to meet and get to know people only to be used by them. I have no friends. Only people who know me when they need something. It's not a good feeling to be used by people.
My employer has laid off over 15K people and laying off more. They are imposing impossible expectations and work conditions. They have also ignored my medical accommodation. Its against the law. They dont care. I need favor on my job. I've done good for the company for many years.
People love assuming things about others and passing judgment. People should examine themselves and their own lives before speaking/typing one word. It would be good if people would actually pray for one another and not just copy and paste so called prayers. The bible warns against repetitive repeated prayers of recitation. It's not actually praying and the one its intended for knows its copied and pasted. God sees it and isn't impressed with recited/repeated 'prayers as he says in the bible.
I've been praying for years to be married and to have a family of my own. God's word assures me its not good to be alone and "he who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor..". I've sewn into ministries and helped so many people. Now I'm the one in need financially. I need a new car mine has 300K miles and needs replaced. At least $30K in repairs/upgrades to my home. Where are you God who promises you will hear from heaven and answer? I dont remember the last time any of my prayers were answered. This further makes me question my faith. It's definitely shaken to the core.
This depression and sadness is overwhelming. Debilitating. I can hardly get out of bed. So much more that I'm dealing with but it doesn't matter. Hope deferred makes the heart sick. Pray God will take me home soon. Nothing good on this earth for me. Tired of always being alone. Tired of trying to meet and get to know people only to be used by them. I have no friends. Only people who know me when they need something. It's not a good feeling to be used by people.
My employer has laid off over 15K people and laying off more. They are imposing impossible expectations and work conditions. They have also ignored my medical accommodation. Its against the law. They dont care. I need favor on my job. I've done good for the company for many years.
People love assuming things about others and passing judgment. People should examine themselves and their own lives before speaking/typing one word. It would be good if people would actually pray for one another and not just copy and paste so called prayers. The bible warns against repetitive repeated prayers of recitation. It's not actually praying and the one its intended for knows its copied and pasted. God sees it and isn't impressed with recited/repeated 'prayers as he says in the bible.