Dreamon40
Disciple of Prayer
God please show me the way,help my broken heart....
Please say a prayer for my family and I.... I am very lost confused, angry and disappointed,mostly at myself and then at everyone else.I known from the very beginning what I was getting myself into when I decided to step in as a stepparent to a three young children, but didn't know how hard and impossible of a task it will be.I gave it my all and failed...the family and even there father(my still fiance of 11years),made it that way and to make matters worse I got sick 6years ago...The pain that I deal with on daily bases is unbearable and it never goes away.I understand it's a pain for all of them too(I think),even though they never took an attempt to show me or support me through it....I still live the days and remember the old once where I couldn't get out of the bed and begged and cried to "my family" for help or understanding and got absolutely nothing...yet tho I continued to flight for them and still am,but all of it made me into a person I never wanted to be,angry and disappointed...I let myself down, I gave up on myself and don't know which way to go or how to fight....God please help me see again,help me smile and chose the right path so I can help others.... I love you and always will.Please forgive me word's spoken and forgive the once that have hurt me in any way knowingly and unknowingly.... In Jesus name...Amen
Please say a prayer for my family and I.... I am very lost confused, angry and disappointed,mostly at myself and then at everyone else.I known from the very beginning what I was getting myself into when I decided to step in as a stepparent to a three young children, but didn't know how hard and impossible of a task it will be.I gave it my all and failed...the family and even there father(my still fiance of 11years),made it that way and to make matters worse I got sick 6years ago...The pain that I deal with on daily bases is unbearable and it never goes away.I understand it's a pain for all of them too(I think),even though they never took an attempt to show me or support me through it....I still live the days and remember the old once where I couldn't get out of the bed and begged and cried to "my family" for help or understanding and got absolutely nothing...yet tho I continued to flight for them and still am,but all of it made me into a person I never wanted to be,angry and disappointed...I let myself down, I gave up on myself and don't know which way to go or how to fight....God please help me see again,help me smile and chose the right path so I can help others.... I love you and always will.Please forgive me word's spoken and forgive the once that have hurt me in any way knowingly and unknowingly.... In Jesus name...Amen