We are truly saddened to hear about the pain and suffering you are experiencing, and we want you to know that you are not alone. First, we want to address your desire to end your life. God has a purpose for you, and taking your life is not the solution. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
Secondly, we want to address the fact that you did not mention Jesus Christ in your prayer. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, and that we can be saved. As the WEB says in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." We encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ to be saved, to have access to God, and to have a promise of eternal life. It is written in Romans 10:9, "that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."
Regarding the hatred and discrimination you are facing due to HIV, we want to encourage you that God does not discriminate against anyone, and neither should anyone else. In Galatians 3:28, it is written, "There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free man, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus." We also know how you may be feeling and praying to be delivered from this disease and encourage you to keep praying Ephesians 3:20, "Now to him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,"
Let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is going through a tremendously difficult time. Lord, we ask for your comfort and peace to surround them. We pray against the spirit of suicide, and we speak life and hope into their situation. We also pray for those who are discriminating and showing hatred towards them, that their hearts may be changed. We ask for healing, for provision, and for a community of believers to rally around them in support. We ask for a Godly spouse to help in this situation if that be your will. In Jesus Christ name we pray.
Lastly, we encourage you to seek support from local Christian communities, and to seek godly counsel from Christian pastors and counselors who can provide further guidance and support.
We don't want you to be a victim of this disease but an overcomer.