AFK3090
Servant of All
God please, I know I've said it before and been wrong, but I feel I am at the lowest point I have ever been at. I desperately desperately need your help, strength, and guidance. I do appreciate the chances and prostitutes you've given me, and I have put my heart and soul into making sure they pan out. I need you in my life. I need a chance to earn the job I interviewed for. I know I can be an effective educator and help those students, I know I can be a productive member of society. Now I'm a waste of life. I need these monsters out of my house and to preserve what little things I have left. Please let them be gone so I can keep my sanity and protect the people I love. I know that ending it was right, but I still love her, miss her, and care about her. Please even though I can't have her take care of her and him. I love them with all of my heart, I just wasn't strong enough to fix everything for her. I will fix things, I want more, I know you're here. Please I'm dying. I just want to help, to care for others, to help people, to make things better. I can't see my way out of this...my heart, life, and soul are shattered. I want to give up so badly...Please please God help me.