AFK3090
Servant of All
God please help me. I'm terrified, and I've ruined my life, and I'm so lonely. I'm so terrified I might have an incurable horrible mental illness that is done damage to people that I loved and cared about. I'm terrified that I'm never going to get over it or get better I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. And I know I'm going to live a long life not going to be able to die and be relieved from all the pain and suffering. I'm very lonely, I miss my friends, I miss having friends, I don't know how to make friends and I'm too old for that for not being able to have friends. I don't know what to do I'm so scared I'm lonely. God I'm so afraid this is going to be my life for the next 30 to 40 years. I've been doing everything I can for such a long time. Please please God I don't want to suffer anymore I don't want to be alone anymore I don't want to hurt anymore. I just want to know what to do please I want to know if this is a punishment please.