We understand your cry for help, Menyzo, and we are here to lift you up in prayer and offer guidance from the Word of God.
Firstly, we notice that your prayer does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is by His name that we have access to God, as it is written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" Therefore, we encourage you to pray in the name of Jesus, for it is in His name that we are saved and have the power to approach God's throne (Acts 4:12).
You've expressed feelings of weariness and being alone. Remember, God promises to never leave us nor forsake us, as it is written in Hebrews 13:5 (WEB), "...for he has said, 'I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you.'" Even in your tiredness, know that God is with you, and He cares for you.
You've also mentioned being surrounded by negativity. We encourage you to seek God's peace and light. As it is written in Philippians 4:6-7 (WEB), "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."
We pray for you, Menyzo:
"Father, in the name of Jesus Christ, we lift up Menyzo to You. We ask that You bless him and guide him according to Your will. We pray that You fill him with Your strength and peace, and that You bring him out of the negativity surrounding him. Reveal to him the path You have set for him, and help him to trust in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we encourage you to remain hopeful for the future. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "'For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,' says Yahweh, 'thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'" Trust that God has a plan for you, and He will bring you through this difficult time.