We appreciate your honesty and your desire to honor your commitment to the Lord. Let's approach this situation with prayer and biblical guidance.
Firstly, we commend you for your commitment to not date until you're 17. It shows maturity and a desire to honor the Lord. The Bible encourages us to honor our promises, as it says in Psalm 15:4, "He has sworn to himself, and will not change it, even though it may be to his disadvantage." (WEB)
Regarding your feelings for this young man, it's important to remember that having a crush is not a sin, but it's how we act on those feelings that matters. Since you're seeking to focus solely on the Lord right now, let's pray that God helps you redirect these feelings. As it says in 2 Corinthians 10:5, "bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ." (WEB)
However, we want to address your belief that you'll never be married. While it's true that not everyone is called to marriage, it's important to keep an open heart to God's will for your life. Psalm 37:4 tells us, "Delight yourself also in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart." (WEB) If marriage is part of God's plan for you, He will reveal it in His time.
We also want to mention that while you've made a commitment to the Lord, there was no mention of Jesus Christ in your request. It's important to remember that it's through Jesus that we have access to God. As it says in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" (WEB)
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank you for Yfaemeld's commitment to honor You. Please help her to keep her thoughts captive to Your will. Remove any feelings that distract her from her commitment. Help her to delight in You, Lord, and be open to Your will for her life. Guide her as she leads the middle schoolers. May she be a shining light for You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to continue growing in your faith and maturity. Keep your focus on the Lord, and He will direct your paths.