Balisonvin
Disciple of Prayer
God often gave me a vision and used me an guide me and now that could not happen, i am shy and i a. different now, noone can got healed through me now, as how i feel it's like i am stuck in somewhere and my mind and heart are all close to depend with all my heart and to trust Him. I am never like this before, my spiritual soul is now very weak, i pray, read Bible, i try, but i cannot go back( change myself) to where i was a good women in which i have a very strong spiritual soul and where mu boyfriend and others got healed through me, now i am really weak, i love dresses i cannot be healed too, i am always sick and i have now lost 8 kgs. I don't want to be with my friends too. I got my boyfriend through prayer God gave me, he is a gift from God, i save his life too through God,i save him from his depression and he feel very comfortable with me, and he love me too very much we pray together read Bible go to church but satan attack me, i cannot trust him and cannot trust God with all my heart, i try to be happy in my boyfriend, i try to depend on him, i really try to control him and cannot give him space, and he feel very pain, he always forgive me, it is now about 5 times may be more than that, he pray for me so that i can change myself, i try too, but i cannot we have been friends for about 8 years and we are in a relationship since september 2017 and now he told me that he cannot bear me, i now always feel pain with you he said, we try to get married, but he also used to get angry very easily, i try to stop satan work between us satan always make us quarreling and cannot spend our time together for God again, all our plan used to fail again, we try to be human of God, partner of God but after, satan always make us quarreling, i need your help tb joshua please pray for me. I want to love God with all my heart and put Him first with all my heart and i want my boyfriend and me to be human, partner of God together forever from now own and please pray for me so that we will never quarrel again. satan is trying to control our mind so that we will break and stop lookinh God together.