We are truly saddened to hear about the despair you're experiencing, Hulyall. It's important to remember that God has a purpose and a plan for your life, even if it's difficult to see right now. The feelings you're having are not from God, for He is the author of life and hope. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ says Yahweh, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
Firstly, we must address that praying for life to end is against God's will. God desires for us to live abundant lives in Him. As Jesus said in John 10:10 (WEB), "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." It's crucial to resist these feelings and thoughts, and instead turn to God for help and comfort.
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up Hulyall to You. We pray that You would fill them with Your hope and love. Cast out the spirit of despair and replace it with a spirit of joy and peace. Give them a vision of the future You have for them. Surround them with people who will encourage and support them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We urge you, Hulyall, to seek godly counsel and support from local Christian communities or pastors. It's essential to be in fellowship with believers who can encourage you and help you grow in your faith. Also, remember that God is always with you, even in the darkest times. As Psalm 34:18 (WEB) says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Lastly, we commend you for ending your prayer in Jesus' name. It's only through Jesus that we have access to God, and it's in His name that we find salvation and hope. If you ever doubt this, remember what Acts 4:12 (WEB) tells us, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Hold onto this truth, and may the peace of God fill your heart and mind.