Let's trust Jesus for Blilorard's desire. "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart" (Ps 37:4). Praying for an affordable home to call their own. In Jesus' name! 
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**Health**: Pray for no side effects for a son's medication.
**Family**: 
YouAreEverything
Servant
God, it started in kindergarten, preschool, i remember we had a some easy calculations to do, and it took me a while, other kids already had left to play, and i just sat there, never understood what exactly had to be done
this has been like that throughout school, army, work, and its on a stage now where it's getting more and more ridiculous, its like i don't understand assignments throughout my life, it's not even hard anymore, it's a dead end.
My father has lost hes job, doesn't know where to start, my mother is getting older, legs are not so good anymore, and i just don't know, i do try to learn, but as again it's beyond one to understand, i feel alone, i have couple of my friends
but i can never go really that deep with them, i don't know why, maybe my insecurities because i was bullied, strict parenting when i was a kid, never understood school, so teachers always had hard time, i have been in classes, where test results are being told
and I'm the only one who failed, and the whole class knows who i am, that has crushed me to a point, where i don't want to go to school/work, because this happens all over again, life also moves so fast, that we just have left behind, apathy mostly,
my mom tries to help me the most, she has been always there for me, without her, id be sitting still in first grade, i can see their dreams fading everyday more and more, i am also dreaming somewhere out of this life, cant explain it with words, forgive me.
It's been funerals a lot in my life, and graveyard cleaning, what i do with my parents, a lot of deaths, not much relatives, and the small amount there is, we are not connecting, its never been that much fun or excitement, when other kids enjoyed their summerbreak,
i learned for math exams, or any other exam, for months and still failing or getting 1 point out of them, i don't want to work for nobody, and even if i did it would not work out, they would kick me out, because i would be slow, not understanding, even if they would explain,
it can be 1 mistake and your out, i don't fit, i can see it in their eyes, what you're doing here, not a place for you, i don't know whats happening to me, world is just harsh and getting faster, and harder for us, i guess i'm floating somewhere in my own imaginations, have been
since i first felt it, and to this date, maybe most of people would not believe what they see or know, but in a weird way i do, i always looked how other people, how they would feel, talk, think, act, and i always knew i have different mindset than others.
The plan is to be free, what seems to be ruling life, you are only one who can make that happen, i believe in you, i have my family, i do it for them, brings me back to my first sentence, in that kindergarten i had some calculations to do, and it took me a while,
i was thinking about you God, and to this date i am, i do all for Glory Of God, i know God will do it.
InJesusName, Amen
this has been like that throughout school, army, work, and its on a stage now where it's getting more and more ridiculous, its like i don't understand assignments throughout my life, it's not even hard anymore, it's a dead end.
My father has lost hes job, doesn't know where to start, my mother is getting older, legs are not so good anymore, and i just don't know, i do try to learn, but as again it's beyond one to understand, i feel alone, i have couple of my friends
but i can never go really that deep with them, i don't know why, maybe my insecurities because i was bullied, strict parenting when i was a kid, never understood school, so teachers always had hard time, i have been in classes, where test results are being told
and I'm the only one who failed, and the whole class knows who i am, that has crushed me to a point, where i don't want to go to school/work, because this happens all over again, life also moves so fast, that we just have left behind, apathy mostly,
my mom tries to help me the most, she has been always there for me, without her, id be sitting still in first grade, i can see their dreams fading everyday more and more, i am also dreaming somewhere out of this life, cant explain it with words, forgive me.
It's been funerals a lot in my life, and graveyard cleaning, what i do with my parents, a lot of deaths, not much relatives, and the small amount there is, we are not connecting, its never been that much fun or excitement, when other kids enjoyed their summerbreak,
i learned for math exams, or any other exam, for months and still failing or getting 1 point out of them, i don't want to work for nobody, and even if i did it would not work out, they would kick me out, because i would be slow, not understanding, even if they would explain,
it can be 1 mistake and your out, i don't fit, i can see it in their eyes, what you're doing here, not a place for you, i don't know whats happening to me, world is just harsh and getting faster, and harder for us, i guess i'm floating somewhere in my own imaginations, have been
since i first felt it, and to this date, maybe most of people would not believe what they see or know, but in a weird way i do, i always looked how other people, how they would feel, talk, think, act, and i always knew i have different mindset than others.
The plan is to be free, what seems to be ruling life, you are only one who can make that happen, i believe in you, i have my family, i do it for them, brings me back to my first sentence, in that kindergarten i had some calculations to do, and it took me a while,
i was thinking about you God, and to this date i am, i do all for Glory Of God, i know God will do it.
InJesusName, Amen
