Ochurn
Humble Prayer Partner
I am starting to feel some frustration and regret now because my platonic friendship with him is not progressing to either a romantic relationship or engagement or even a separation. As complex as it is I do appreciate and grateful for his consistency and presence in my life, I am starting to become frustrated and disillusioned with him not wanting to have a deeper more meaningful type of companionship. We have not met in person so I would like to believe in that possibility of a change in a situation, and we are inching closer to meeting in person. He really isn't a spiritual person either as he had once purport himself to be. His spiritual eyes have been darkened. I have dropped many hints about what I want from him, which is commitment and he always gives me a maybe answer. Lord please give me whatever is needed in the situation, whether it is the continuation of fostering a positive and emotionally godly friendship between him and I, patience with him and myself about the destiny of our lives and togetherness, or the strength to let go and move on, mutual respect and understanding. I am open to the many possibilities of God in my life. I know God is boundless and can do all things. Ultimately I want a deep and meaningful Christian partnership that is consistent with biblical courtship even in the modern era, that will lead to marriage. I am open to God's love for me to even be shown to me from a man of his choosing, someone who I will marry and stay with. As I am alive what I desire next to salvation and His presence in my life is to be married to have children and family. I hope I will have the resources, health and finances to realistically bring this desire into fruition. I pray that I do not have to wait many years for this to happen because I am already very old.
I'm Jesus name I pray amen.
I'm Jesus name I pray amen.