Maboisha
Prayer Partner
I know I've posted several prayer requests about the man I'm in love with. God has been sending me incredible signs lately! Last time, I wrote about an amazing opportunity he had with his job. That turned out really well! I've mentioned before that he's a performer. This opportunity means his talents will get to be seen by many people that may have never gotten to see him otherwise! This will boost his career & his self-esteem! (It breaks my heart every time he refers to himself as a no-name or talks about how he's not a draw!) Praise God! God is SO good! I was able to message him before the show to tell him to have fun, let him know I was excited for his big opportunity, & tell him to tell our 2 mutual friends that were there that I said hello. (I'd hoped they might say something to him about me when he told them hello from me. I'm honestly not sure if he remembered to tell them or if they said anything.) Then I told him he can't use those lines anymore about being a no-name or not a draw, & that those were already a stretch for him to say! He was crazy busy that day but did take the time to my messages, say thank you, & my response of, "You're welcome! Of course! I mean it!" After the show, I wrote him again to ask how it went. He told me they all had fun! He thanked me when I told him I was glad he had fun & my reply of, "You're welcome! " I only mention the s & short replies because beforehand, he was super busy & afterwards, it was very late & I know he was tired, so it meant a lot to me that he took the time to do that. The next day, I went to my friend's cafe & had a long talk with her. She tried to encourage me to just tell him how I feel, which I've been too scared to do! I prayed the whole way from the cafe to the gym & God gave me sign after sign! First I was stopped at a red light behind a truck with a license plate frame that had his name on it (in reference to a car dealership). That one just made me giggle & I didn't think much of it at first. Then I was talking about how everyone keeps telling me to let him know how I feel & I said to God, "I can't do it!" I heard an actual audible voice say, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" I almost couldn't breathe for a second! Then I looked over & saw a church sign that said, "Commit all you do to the Lord & your plans will succeed." That kind of made my heart skip a beat. I continued praying & somehow said, "I can't do it," again. I heard the same audible voice saying the same thing again! A couple weeks earlier, I had prayed for a very specific & unique set of signs - a green butterfly & a yellow lizard (I'm scared of lizards, so idk why this is what came to my mind, but these are things I just don't ever see). I prayed that if things were about to happen, I'd see them in the next 5 days and if I saw them later, that meant things would happen fairly soon after seeing them. On the way home from the gym that day, a yellowish-green butterfly with black outlines (like nothing I've ever seen before) flew right in front of my car! Something less major but seemed like a little bit of a sign from God was the night before, my mom & I each had 2 fortune cookies & all 4 fortunes seemed to fit my situation perfectly & point towards good things. I always just look at those as meaningless fun, but when combined with the signs from the next day, they seemed to be more than coincidental. Over the next 2 days, I posted 2 different song clips to my fb story (which he wouldn't see on his own because he's hardly ever on his personal profile, but I was hoping our mutual friends would see them & tell him about them) that never mentioned him specifically but if you know us, you'd know were about him. One song mentioned "guitar cutie," & he knows I'm a sucker for when he plays guitar (not what does for a living - he actually refuses to believe how good he is!) & the other mentions me leaving him alone if he wants but I'd rather stay around & love him. No one ever saw these except my BFF. Then a day or 2 later, I sent him a message that included my phone number (we've always talked on messenger, fb, insta, or in person) & I asked him to call me sometime. I still haven't heard from him (call, text, or messenger) after almost 3 days! He is known to get in his head & kind of shut down. This is what he did after this message & after the one I sent him about a week earlier saying I hope to be moving to "or close to" my favorite place soon. (He lives only a 3 hour drive from that place & before I said this, I think he thought I wouldn't want to move. I needed him to know this doesn't have to be an awkward long distance thing but until then, I didn't know how to tell him without overstepping.) After both messages, he never replied or reacted to them, & he went silent on all social media for about a day (which is unusual for him). When he did start posting again, both times, he started with a generic question with no background (he usually puts a background on his posts) & never replied or reacted to any of the answers... except 1, which he . Someone said their favorite saying is, "If you aim at nothing, you'll hit it every time." He's not taking this advice. I hope he it because he's working up the nerve to take his shot! Both times, he slowly started posting more & a couple days later was back to his normal social media habits. It's a bit too much of a coincidence for it to actually be a coincidence! Yesterday, I tried a new approach that really scared me, but I knew if it worked, it would be worth it! I wrote to his good friend, who he's worked with several times lately. I told her I needed to ask her something in confidence, woman to woman. I asked if he's said anything to her about me, whether it's that he likes me, he thinks I'm crazy & annoying, he thinks of me as a friend, anything, because if so, I need to know so I can better know how to approach things. She saw my message right away & sent a sweet voice message back saying she wishes she could be of more help but he's only mentioned me once to her, when I sent her a friend request & he wanted her to know. She also said she wouldn't tell him or anyone about our conversation, so I don't need to worry about that (I asked her not to unless he said something about liking me & needed a push.) I told her thank you & said that if she wanted to put in a good word for me, I wouldn't hate it! I feel slightly awkward that one of his good friends that he works with often knows this much, but I absolutely trust her & feel like she could possibly be an asset to this situation down the road. I'm not surprised he hasn't mentioned me to her (I just figured IF he had mentioned me to anyone, it'd probably be her because she'd be easier to talk about feelings with than his male friends & I think they all already think we're an item.) because of how he tried to play it off when he introduced me to everyone a couple months ago (they all saw through it and looked back & forth between us & smiled the whole time) & because most 38 year-old men aren't going to go around babbling like a teenager about the woman they like (unlike me - I can't shut up about him, but that's more common for a woman)! I still haven't worked up the nerve to just tell him but at least he has as my number, his friend knows, & I'm building up some courage. I'm a chicken & I don't like that he's an ever bigger chicken than me! I've always been very grateful that I'm a girl, so even though I can make the first move if I want to, I don't have to! I never thought I'd even be able to do the things I've already done to flirt & give hints, but the way I feel about this man is beyond my wildest dreams! They always say that you can imagine what it'll feel like, but when you actually fall in love, it'll be so much stronger, better, & more intense than you could ever imagine. Although I knew that, I didn't think this level of feelings was even possible! Please pray that God would guide us both in what to say & do and how & when to say & do these things. Pray for us both to have wisdom, knowledge, courage, bravery, peace, clarity, & strength. Please pray for me to have patience & for him to have higher self-esteem & be less nervous & in his head (about this, his job, his guitar playing, his looks, everything). I feel like God has given me all these signs lately & I feel in my heart like this is going to work out for us (& if it doesn't, I'll be ok because he's so perfect for me, so if he's not the one, that'd mean there's somehow someone even more perfect for me out there, which I can't even fathom)! Thank you so much for the prayers!