Krysta
Disciple of Prayer
God.. I'm sorry for not being more thankful. I'm sorry for never looking at the bright side of things. I am thankful. I have so much to be thankful for so please forgive me for being so blind. But lately I've been struggling. You know the guy on my heart so I don't want to name any names. But I believed it was you that tugged at my heart and told me he was the one. I don't think it was me because I never ever have thought a guy in my life was "the one". Meeting him was like meeting the male version of me but slightly different. I can't deny the connection between us.. Or that was between us. He made me so fired up to be in your word. He made me passionate for you. And I'm sorry for the choice him and I made. But lord can you please find it in your heart to forgive us and the mistakes we made? I know you will, I just wanted to say that. When I met him, all guys around me haven't caught my eye. Even the guys that I liked before I met him. The guys that I once drooled over and would do anything to talk to don't even get a reply from me because I feel so deeply in my soul that it was meant to be. He helped me love myself when I never seen anything lovable about me. He helped me learn how to trust again. He made me believe that maybe love did exist. But it's so hard because he left making sure to cut off all communication. And is left me so broken. It doesn't sting as bad as it first did but my heart still longs for him. I prayed over and over that anything not of you would leave my mind and heart, yet he still lingers here. Please God equipped him and I to be together. Please, one day, when we are BOTH ready, make us appear at the same place at the same time. And please God confirm this to me. Please give me insight. Please give me wisdom. Just please no matter how long it takes, months or years ( I don't care), bring him back to me. I won't make the same mistake God. Give us a second chance. I know he's the apple of my eye, so can you make me the apple of his. I have faith I just need a confirmation because if this is not of you, I'll will let go even if it's impossibly hard. Just say the words God and I'll follow. If it is your will, please bring him back. I don't care if it's 5 years from now. If it's meant to be, let it be and please God confirm it.