Anonymous
Beloved of All
God, I prayed for you to reveal yourself to me years ago and you did. Thanks for that. you God told me that you couldn’t see Chad Tobler with anyone else but me. You told me this multiple times for years. Chad swore to you God, multiple times for years that he’d only be with me and no one else, for eternity, for forever, for life and only have sex with me including in his dreams. Chad swore on his family, his life, his mother Angela Tobler multiple times he’d only be with me. Chad swore with his right hand on your bible multiple times he’d only be with me for eternity, and only have sex with me. You God, told me you could not fit everything in the Bible. Please tell me why all this has happened. Please explain to me in detail. You told me I was going to know everything. When? That was awhile ago. Did Chad cheat? Why did he try to kick me out on my birthday and then kick me out a week after? Why did he and you leave me homeless? Why did a 53 year old bartender/ drug dealer move in with him immediately after? I still think she is an angel or even you lord Jesus. Did they have sex? What’s going on? I know there are trades going on, however cheating is cheating is it not? I’ve been baptized as a baby and an adult. I did RCIA online and in person (about to complete this Easter). I stood up to recommit as an adult and said the saviors prayer that Jesus is my lord and personal savior at Lakewood, Joel olsteens church. I was 4th row from the front and in the center. Joel olsteen even winked at me. Then he prayed over me and his mom anointed me. Then Chad wanted to recommit with me a week or so later so we both stood up at Lakewood together. I have been praying and reading the Bible for years daily, multiple times a day. Meanwhile, Chad has been going to strip clubs, bars, doing drugs, dealing drugs, I’ve heard he’s been cheating, lying, driving while under the influence, getting his brother to do drugs, living with a bartender who is like 15 years older than us, yet still telling me he loves me. He told me he loves me again recently, multiple times. Meanwhile, I’ve been obeying you God, Jesus is the way, the truth, and the light/ life…right? Why has this been my life for years? What do you want me to do? Disobey you? I doubt that. I obeyed you God and this happened. How long has this been happening and why? You’re the alpha and the omega. Why did you lead me down this path? You made two to become one right? Where is my soulmate? I’ve been with Chad for almost a decade and it’s been terrible yet I did what you told me. Why did you do this to me God? What do I do? I’m even a Chiropractor! I worked hard for that and you’ve provided the little money for me to barely survive. I don’t even have a bed. My furniture is still at the house that chads dad bought. I’ve been bouncing around places since my birthday last year. I’m ready to time travel and go to heaven safely or just go to heaven safely at this point. What does this mean for me obeying Jesus and this happening. Follow God and I will be blessed, my generations will be blessed, my herds will be blessed, my bread plates will be blessed right? Where’s that? You God made two to become one? Where’s my soulmate? I’m 37 now. It’s over and I did the right thing! I don’t want to be an old mom. I’d rather go to heaven safely soon like years ago (actually I’d rather be with my soulmate years ago!). You God literally revealed yourself to me years ago and I obeyed you and it’s been terrible. Even when Chad and I would go places before females and males would flirt with him and he would flirt back! You told me flirting is wrong. I did what I was supposed to do, prayed to myself, stayed as calm as possible, smiled and was nice and prayed again later that that would never happen to me again. It happened again just a week or two ago. Geeze. What choice do I have? Please save me from this Jesus and expose and stop the enemy in Jesus Christ amen in Yeshua Hamashiachs amen.