BeutifultoGod
Good and Faithful Servant
God I know I am in a relationship with someone but my feelings are all out of wack. With my health not being good too I cannot understand somethings. I never had a good relationship with men and with people I suffer with people pleasing on both ends. I just pray that I can stop doing that. I lose myself in relationships too. My boyfriend says he loves me for who I am which is hard to believe. I don't even love myself ( due to past hurts and pain). I have so many insecurities and problems due to my past. Word curses being said about me from peers and my mother and sister. I want to be free and free to be myself. Not other people. I don't like being passive either I notice it bring in the wrong people towards me. I do not trust people either. I hold grudges and hurts. Please Lord provide me with the strength you have and to be courageous. I suffer with all types of fears too. I don't have support and care. Help me Jesus. Let me know how to make decisions and be okay with them. I need to get out of this toxic environment but my mind is so weak. Also, I don't like my job. There is a lot of favoritism and stuff going on that hurts me. In Jesus Name Amen
I appreciate you all who pray for me and write nice messages. I feel so loved.
I appreciate you all who pray for me and write nice messages. I feel so loved.