Alex Grace
Humble Prayer Partner
God I can't hold my heart in much more. The pain is suffocating. God, I am doing my best to keep my faith. Lord, this love hurts. This separation hurts. God, I have been praying for this healing of this relationship everyday. God, I have been calling out to you. Lord, am I just a fool to give my heart out so deeply to this man. God, the pain is unbearable, God but I keep praying for healing because a part of me still believes this is it. A part of me still believes that there is hope. God, he has left me but I still have hope that this isn't the end. God, does he even feel the suffering he put me through? Does he even love me? God, I am so confused. Lord, my heart feels like it is crippled. God, I have moments where I feel great and that it will be ok. But then I have these low lows of fear and that I am just a fool. God, I cry out for you to heal this. Heal my heart. God, please give me direction. I feel like I am stuck in purgatory. God I am keeping my hope my faith because it's all that is keeping me alive. God. I have been so mistreated in the past. God, ever since I was a little girl my heart has been abused and betrayed, mishandled. God, please help me end that cycle of myself. God, I know I am worthy of someone who really loves me and treats me like a gift. God, I still have hope in a miracle with Hunter. But, lord right now I am on my knees, alone, with tears falling typing this. I feel weak. God, the world feels so dark for me right now. I feel like beautiful flower and like it's been picked and thrown out. God, please I need your warmth tonight.