God has forgotten me after all this suffering. sometimes ...

[Billy Paul]

God has forgotten me after all this suffering. sometimes i ask myself why did i come to this earth, why do i have to live on when all i face is suffering, if it was not for my poor mother, i would wish to Join my late brother in Heaven. I have cried but my prayers have not been answered, i have tested the time of death but fought back to live, i have seen the wicked truimph while i continue to fail, i have cried day and night but my prayers have never been answered, those who use witchcraft have succeeded, i have seen hell and i have seen heaven in its real form but now i ask myself that if God has shown me all this and yet he has not answered my prayers then why do i have to live?, why is it me who is followed by problems everywhere i go? Is God happy that am suffering like this? Is God realy happy that i dont have my own house?,is God happy that i have lost.... that i lost the only woman i loved in my life?, is God realy happy that she takes me like rubbish and sees no value in me after all i have done for her? Is God realy happy that my land lord wants to chase me out of the house because i cannot pay in advance? is God realy happy that i fell out with my father to protect the innocent? Is GOd realy happy that all problems are like a bed of roses on my morning sight? is God realy happy for me... and all that is going on in my life? Will God ever set his eyes on me to save me from this mess? yes thier people who have done worse things than me like killers,rapists,blasphemy...and so many ...yes all sins are the same before the eyes of God but why is it that those who committ worse sins are the best in society? with money and all they need? Why is it that am poor yet i keep on asking from God who gives others and me am just left out? someone will say everything has its own time but many have heard and waited for the same but in the end died without getting anything...Why? Shall i say that that God does not give everyone? I have never seen God and i believe my eyes are so wicked to see him, but one thing that i am beginning to see is dought in my heart which i dont want...to dought my God because yes many are in a worse situation than me but that all depends on what he planned for me...let me hope God answers this one prayer to remove my pains and doughts...,"Make me a better person and richer in society than what i am today" With that i will become a preacher forever and never dought anything. That is all i can give back to GOD if my prayer is answered.That is all i need from God and that is what i can give back but from now until then which is now when my prayer should be answered i pray not to go astray. I need God to hear my prayer because for sure i am losing everything and yet i dont want to leave my God with hope of coming back yet i may never get the chance if am blinded...Save me God this once and answer my prayer this once.....feel the pain in my soul and help me God.....Help my brother to get money, help my sister to get money make me thousands of times richer than them so that i can help your people. Even if i die tomorrow as long as i have done this and as long as i have been able to help many souls, my soul will rest in peace...but for now i cant be at peace with this mission almost failing...all i want to be able is to help your people.. that is why i ask you to answer mmy prayer and command the angels in heaven to immediately send the blessing to me now, now and now as you can hear me yarning for sucess...now and now......and now... now i feel relieved after pouring out my anger and yet my soul is crying because i dont know how this day will end but i know in one way or the other it will end.....i admit i cannot do anything without you....but my command to the angels in the heavens still stands...i need my blessings now and now....its a command to the angels because they are mine and not htiers i need all my things form the heavens now ....i repeat that i command by the blood shed on the cross as my convenant.....by the blood of Jesus christ....i command the angels by force to give me my things in the heavens because they are mine and mine and mine and mine and i have no reason to continue suffering when am rich.

LUGONA PAUL

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Cben]

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[K-J]

Father God, I pray that You would calm this spirit of its anger and resentment. We know from scripture that You are a loving and merciful God and it is not our place to question Your will or its timing. Please let this person release their anger and truly have peace in their heart. Take away the urgency of demanding blessings for we know this is not how You reveal Yourself in our lives. I pray that patience, repentance and peace would fill this person's heart until Your will is accomplished. In Jesus' precious name, amen.