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dove915
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I have posted many prayer requests on here and none have been answered. I believed that if I was saved that the Lord would take care of me. I prayed alone and I asked for people here to pray with me. But to no avail. I still have no job. I still have all of my debt. I still so many problems and worries that it feels like my back is breaking. I am going to go insane with worry. I begged God to help me. I begged God to maybe get more unempoyment. I got a letter saying I might be eligible. It took me 2 days to get thru...I signed up...then I get a letter saying I can't get it. Thanks Jesus. Why EVEN send the letter in the first place just to get my hopes up so I can be knocked back down again. I can't take it anymore. I did everything I could to try and please Him. Reading the bible...trying to learn to live the best Christian life I could. Repented for EVERY sin I could think of I had done in my life. I felt so guilty when I did something I knew was wrong like get angry with my daughter...it would eat at me...until I repented to God and asked forgiveness. I even thanked God when the unemployment letter came in the mail BEFORE I opened it. What a joke..thanking Him for sending me nothing but a "You're Not Eligible". So that is it. I am done. He doesn't care about me. He never has. I am not doing this anymore. Life is just life...and 99% of the time...it SUCKS! If He cared...why do we suffer sooo much? Where is the happiness? Without the hurt or problems? Who cares anyway? Not HIM!