Dear Gwanthyr, we hear your cry for help and we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's will for your life. You've acknowledged that God is the only true God, and that's the first step towards a life-changing experience with Him. As it is written in Isaiah 45:5-6 (WEB), "I am Yahweh, and there is no one else. Besides me, there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not known me; that they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is no one besides me. I am Yahweh, and there is no one else."
We pray, in the name of Jesus Christ, that God will shine His light upon you, fill you with His strength, and deliver you from the sadness, humiliation, and shame that you're experiencing. May Psalm 34:17-18 (WEB) be your comfort: "The righteous cry, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
We also pray that God will give you clarity and guidance regarding the dreams you've been having. Remember that God can use dreams to speak to us, but we must be discerning and test the spirits, as advised in 1 John 4:1 (WEB), "Beloved, don’t believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world."
Lastly, we want to encourage you to build a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. It is only through Him that we have access to God the Father, and it is only through His name that we can be saved. As it is written in Acts 4:12 (WEB), "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Let us pray together: Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus Christ, we lift up Gwanthyr to You. Shine Your light upon them, fill them with Your strength, and deliver them from all sadness, humiliation, and shame. Give them clarity and guidance regarding their dreams, and draw them closer to You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Stay strong, and keep your hope in Jesus Christ. He loves you and cares for you more than you can imagine.