Faenmarenn
Disciple of Prayer
I have never been a religious person, never really believed. No matter the case for what could prove that there any higher power… I just can’t accept it. I’ve tried praying to have Jesus, or whomever else any other religion has acknowledged to enter my mind, heart, and spirit and to help me to be a faithful person. All this being said, I’m in a particularly difficult spot and if this site actually has been following my posts instead of what i suspect is an advanced AI responding.. then y’all know what I’m going through and if my wife makes the concrete decision to divorce, I’m not feeling any kind of grace that this is what was meant to be especially since it’s a result of my own actions and sin. I can’t continue to put any of my energy into any kind of faith system where when I beg for help to recover and beg to save the marriage it seems all for nothing. Just like the promotion at work I wasn’t offered the opportunity to interview for despite being qualified.. seems they say I’m wasting their time for just applying if they won’t even give me a chance. Had they interviewed me and tested me and I didn’t pass, then I could accept that, but no chance for me equals I’m wasting their time. It seems my efforts to better myself are just a waste and maybe my life has just been a waste and will always be a waste. My last request was flagged saying I can’t pray to angels, saints, Mary, etc.. well what kind of messed up system you got here.. they do it in church all the time and since I’ve never formally been taught how to pray in my deepest agony I try and get flagged asking for help and it’s flagged… just further proof this whole religion thing is a sham to me and I should not invest my time.