Heavenly Father... I have remained strong for 10 months waiting for my husband to return as promised. I am giving up. I am too sad, too lonely, and way over the top too tired. No motivation or will to go on. I have no social network or family .... NO ONE and the challenges of everyday life are way over the top too much for me. I am losing my will to live Lord. I wonder why I'm still here or why on earth you are allowing me to continue to have to endure this miserable isolation. I have no time to do anything properly and struggle to fix my meals and get enough sleep. My life dreams are gone because I am too tired trying to keep it all together with two properties and animals. I don't understand why this has happened to me. Or why my husband won't call me at least to tell me what really is. We were not breaking up and his sister and daughter have manipulated our life and marriage and I am paying the price. My husband has his daughter to take care of him. I have no one. If I collapse, there isn't even someone to call 911. It's a frightening position to be in. And I am oh so tired. I can't go on like this. Please Lord have mercy and bring my husband home ... whole and healthy. I have prayed and prayed for that miracle.... and here 10 months when I am at near collapse, no relief in sight. Or take me Lord. I don't want to continue this life in almost complete isolation. My muscles ache daily from lifting too much alone. I have too many obligations and no help whatsoever and can't afford to hire people. There just isn't enough of me. My husband has abandoned me completely I feel at this point and that was cruel and a heinous thing to do. Especially since he told me in the beginning he was NOT leaving me and to not even think it. And right after he said that he stopped communication with me .... now for 9 months of the 10. I am struggling with this terribly. Where are you Lord? I can't take any more. Please Lord.... thank-you for relief ... and the only relief I can imagine would be my husband, my partner, my best friend to come home and help get things done so we can sell the properties and move on toward a simpler life of worship. Dear God help me.... I'm sooo tired. In Jesus' name... Amen!