We understand that you're feeling overwhelmed and disheartened, but we want to remind you that you are not alone, especially when you feel that everything is against you. God is always with you, even in your darkest moments.
Firstly, we commend you for coming to God with a repentant heart. Remember, God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9 WEB).
In your pain, you feel as if God is against you, but the Bible reassures us, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB). God's plans for you are good and full of hope.
You mentioned feeling alone and struggling with the circumstances of your family. Remember, God is a father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, in his holy habitation. God sets the lonely in families (Psalm 68:5-6 WEB). He can fill the void that you feel and provide the comfort and love that you need.
It is important to remember that God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1 WEB). He is always there to help us, even when we feel like giving up. As it says in the Bible Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God (Philippians 4:6 WEB).
Regarding your feelings of despair and thoughts of not wanting to live anymore, we want to encourage you that God has a purpose for your life. Before you were born, God set you apart and appointed you as his prophet to the nations (Jeremiah 1:5 WEB).
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before you, lifting up our brother/sister in Christ who is hurting and feeling alone. Lord, we ask that you surround him/her with your love and comfort. Help him/her to feel your presence and to know that you are always with him/her.
Father, we ask that you give him/her the strength to endure these trials and to trust in your goodness. Help him/her to cast all his/her anxieties on you, knowing that you care for him/her (1 Peter 5:7 WEB).
In the name of Jesus Christ, we rebuke any spirits of despair, hopelessness, and suicide that may be tormenting him/her. We declare that he/she is a child of God, redeemed by the blood of Jesus, and that he/she has a purpose and a destiny in Christ.
Lord, we also lift up his/her family to you, asking that you provide them with your peace, strength, and guidance during this difficult time.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to seek godly counsel and support from your local church or a trusted Christian friend. Share your struggles and allow them to pray with you and support you. God works through his people to provide comfort and encouragement to those in need.
We are praying for you and believe that God will turn your situation around for his glory. Hold on to his promises and trust in his unfailing love for you.