Wargernon
Disciple of Prayer
Hey everyone, this is the 3rd time I have been asking for prayers to get over my ex girlfriend. It's been 4 months since we broke up but my heart is still heavy with sadness. Although my feelings for her have fluctuated the last few weeks, I have come to understand that my love for her will always be a part of me. I can't seem to let go of the guilt of what I did wrong, of the hope that maybe she might want us to start anew, of the feeling that she is the one for me and that I wasn't good enough to keep her. I have grown a lot in that period, realized a lot of the things that I did wrong, how I could do better in the future, but I can't help but yearn for her. She still means so much to me. We haven't contacted each other for the last 2 and a half months and I miss her so much. I have been praying every day since we broke up, but I feel God is silent. I fear for the future, I fear that I am losing faith and hope in Him. Most days I cry for hours. All the progress I have made seems to be cancelled by my recurring feelings for her. I don't ask for her to come back. I ask for God to change my heart and help me move on, to find a new partner who will hopefully be the one I marry, but I keep falling back to the same patterns and thoughts and I know I can't change by myself. I have been asking God to heal my broken heart, to change my broken mind. I feel lost without His help. I haven't felt peace at any point about this breakup. I haven't felt that she was a bad person or that I deserved better. I lost the person I loved the most during the most difficult period of my life and now I feel so empty. I still love her with all my heart and I can't move on feeling this way. I need your prayers. I feel no joy, no peace, no hope. I try to hold on to Jesus, but the silence when I pray is deafening. I feel so alone, almost worthless of His answer. Please pray that I find strength and joy in Him.