lovemy
Disciple of Prayer
We split for a yr and a half. I prayed n begged God to get us back together. One day after dropping boys off to dad the bus driver told me God wants u to rebuild your relationship with the dad. I thought long n hard n did so. However he has continued to lie saying there was no girl. My son's mind u told me all about her. Kids do make up stories however to many details from kids n These are my autistic children too. We moved right down the street from her. She drives by kids will say there's carmen. Their dad my fiance says I'm lying. Putting things in their head. I pray and get bible verses about decictfulness. I know in my heart he's lying. He swears on God even thou I told him he shouldn't it's against the Bible but he doesanyway. I truly need prayers to get over this. I have forgave him hence why I'm trying to make this work but what I can't get over is he lies. This women will drive up n down my street kids reqonize her n now I'm getting random prank calls saying ur girlfriend carmen sent me. My fiance still denies it. Says no no no. It's in my head. Tells me I must be sick in my head. I just want the truth so I can learn to trust him n rebuild this. Nemhiah is anthor book I always open to when I pray before reading the word. I'm struggling very bad mentally with this. I'm praying n asking everyone else to pray to open up his heart n mind n just have him tell me the truth. I can't handle the lies. I'm ready to break this off n not get married but the devil likes separation so idk. I also don't know if God ans my prayers because it's what he wanted or if he did it to show me that sometimes u can pray n pray n get something but then no longer want it. All I know is I need the Holy Spirit to fill my heart with peace and love. I can't be emotional and be a mother. These kids needs me. Please please pray he admits the truth so we can move on. Pray if this is what god wanted.