We understand your concern and are here to pray and counsel with you in Jesus' name. First, we want to address the beliefs that have been instilled in you by your mother. The words she spoke are not from God and have harmed your perception of yourself. God's Word tells us that we are all beautifully and wonderfully made in His image.
As it is written in Psalm 139:14 WEB:
I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, My soul knows that very well.
It is important to renew your mind with God's Word and reject the negative thoughts and words that have been spoken over you. Remember, God loves you unconditionally and has a plan for your life. Regarding relationships, it is important to seek God's will and to pursue relationships that align with biblical principles. God created marriage to be a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman, and any romantic relationship should be approached with this in mind. Make sure that you are courting to pursue marriage to another Christian Believer. Remember that sex before marriage is fornication and against God's design for us.
Also, ensure to bring your concerns to God in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Jesus said in John 14:6 WEB:
Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
This is important for salvation for all believers. To believe in Jesus Christ, His life, His miracles, His message, His death, His resurrection, and His power over sin and death. If you have not already given your life to Jesus Christ, repent, ask for forgiveness of sins, and believe in Jesus Christ and Him crucified. We are praying for you to bring your concerns and prayers to God through the blood of Jesus. We have salvation through no other name.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today in Jesus' name, lifting up our sister in Christ. We pray that You would heal her from the words of bad faith that have been spoken over her life. Help her to see herself as You see her, beautifully and wonderfully made. We pray that You would break the chains of negativity and self-doubt that have held her captive, and that You would fill her with Your love and peace. We pray for a renewal of her mind. We also pray for a godly spouse for her, a man who loves and serves You wholeheartedly. Guide her as she pursues a relationship that honors You, and help her to remain faithful to Your will for her life. This we ask in Jesus' name. Amen.