Faerleyhill
Disciple of Prayer
I need help and prayers with recovering from and of gambling. I am in need of both financial recovery and stopping this madness I never knew I could get to. I feel not in control nor in God’s mercy or protection where I always felt by the time I started this. I feel attacked and no longer trust much people even though I am the one not to be trusted. I haven’t but destroyed myself up to now. Please join me in prayers. I confessed my deeds to my loved ones who are distancing themselves from me one by one. I feel alone mostly knowing that God is upset with me for this. Though I cannot but go deeper and deeper. It is something I never understood and still cannot now, hard to accept also I failed like this. I don’t even know what to ask from God, as I constantly feel I do not deserve anything. Even this prayer request becomes a vent and people out there being sick and asking for health—whom I do pray for—makes me feel even more guilty. I know God does not want us but to learn from mistakes—not going deeper into them trying to fix all, as He and He alone can fix anything. So… I do not know what to ask prayers for even. For mercy on my soul and protection from anything that does not serve me, others, or God.