Slethfarwaran
Disciple of Prayer
Gad has proven he hates me and wants me to suffer 6 years ago I discovered I was diabetic – one of the MOST expensive chronic diseases I can no longer drive the last uber driver stole my purse and phone then left me 75 miles from home As I was trying get my suv ready for sale it was vandalized and destroyed by the “repai shop” then was “stolen” from their lot. 6 years ago I was told I will be blind in 7 years – due to genic anomalies in my retinas 3 years ago when my pipes burst from the freeze my land lord REFUSED to shut off water to the apartment when they FINALLY after a week did turn off the water and temporarily relocated me the maintenance staff stole EVERY thing out of my kitchen, dishe, food, pet food, even the old packets of ketchup from fast food places in the fridge, they stole all but 2 pairs of shoes most of my jewlery from my mother, grand mothers, and great grand mothers – they stole most of my clothes and destroyed 1/3 of my furniture – insurance would NOT reimburse me I contracted long corona after getting an injection. 1 year ago – and MUST work from home I was fired when the company was sold 23 months ago 9 months ago, my investments were embezzled – all gone For the last year I have applied to ay and all jobs I remotely could perform well at least 75 - 100 a day 36 times scammers have tried to make me believe I needed to give them money to get a job – these are the ONLY RESPOSES I have received I have applied for assistance and been told I do not qualify for ANY of it at all except snap and that ran out II will be home less is 2 weeks if I do not get $10,000 – to pay back rent and this month’s Is this how God shows “Love” is this how he treats his children my friend have done mote than they should have because THEY are kind, generous and good people I only have enough money to eat ½ of a peanut butter sandwich every other day – playing mery hell with my diabetes I have NO FAMILIY LEFT ALIVE This is abusive NOT LOVE I am scared, lonely without my pets who were taken in by a friend, I am hungry, I am tired God REFUSES to let me get a job He teases me by blowing lottery tickets onto my porch – saying HA-HA you can noy have this I hate you so very much I want you to know how much I have prayed and prayed I have spent every other Saturday doing NOTHING but PRAYING – no eating, no drinking no TV no Radio no bathroom NOTHING BUT PRAYING GOD HATES ME AND WANTS ME MISERABLE, ALONE, PENNILESS AND HOMELESS I an NOT perfect, I am not devout, Ian however, kind, and try to be a good person, The worst thing I have done is speeding, or minor lying mostly to save others; feelings DON’T give me crap about Jobe -I am not a character in the bible, this is noy the 1st century, nor is this the middle east This is evil I have had enough – I WILL NOT BE HOMELESS!!!!! Thus proves IF GOD exists he either hates me or does not give a flaming damn at all Why does God HATE ME and how do I get this hell to stop why do I deserve this when drug dealer, murders, and Donald Trump get to be very wealthy happy and without issues Have already given my only reason for living - my pets – to a friend I HAVE NOTHING LEFT Why wont the cruelty stop Is death the only way to make this jell end This has to end it has to end 6 months ago It has to end IU cannot take any more I need god to HELP and quit touching me I need kindness NOW as in quite literally 3 month ago God turned his back onme years ago and has taken pleasure in tormenting me So why should I care about him Why not join the other team Is the belladonna growing just outside my back yard a sign of what god wants from me It just showed up a few weeks ago