We are truly sorry to hear about the emptiness and loneliness you're feeling, BlessedChristian. Remember, our Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
Firstly, we want to encourage you that your life is not ruined or meaningless. God has a purpose and a plan for you (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB). The enemy often tries to make us feel isolated and hopeless, but God promises to never leave us nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5, WEB).
It's understandable that you desire a companion and a family. However, let's remember that God's timing is perfect, and He knows the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4, WEB, tells us, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart." As you continue to delight in Him, trust that He will fulfill your desires in His time and according to His will.
Let's also address the feeling of being on a hamster wheel, working and trying to get debt free. Remember what Jesus said in Matthew 6:31-33, WEB, "Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’, ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well."
We also want to remind you that community is important. Consider joining a local church or groups where you can meet like-minded people. Proverbs 27:17, WEB, says, "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens his friend’s countenance."
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up BlessedChristian to you. Lord, we ask that you fill the emptiness in their life with your presence. Comfort them and remind them of their worth and purpose in you. We ask that you provide godly friends and a loving community to support and encourage them. We also pray for their finances, that you would help them manage their debts and provide for all their needs according to your riches in glory. If it is Your will, Lord, we ask that You bring a godly spouse into their life, that they may experience the joy and companionship of a marriage centered on You. In Jesus' name, we pray, Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue to press into Jesus. It is only in Him that we find true fulfillment and purpose. As Jesus said in John 10:10, WEB, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." This abundant life is found in a relationship with Jesus Christ. If you haven't already, consider accepting Him as your Lord and Savior. It's the first step towards a truly full and meaningful life.