I am so full of regrets. I dislike my life and being a human being so much. I always try to do good but nothing works out good for me whatever I do no matter how hard I try. I got a self-inflicted scar at age ###. Now I have to live with it for the rest of my life. I'm ### now and I can't go back and not get that scar. I also lost my virginity at ### I wish I never did that. I can't go back and be a virgin again. I have been celibate for almost ### years but that cannot erase I'm not a virgin. I miss out on so many opportunities for my life to change, improve, and get better when I was in my 20s. Now I'm old, it's too late. I don't even have the energy, the strength, the mental. Now I'm struggling; all these years have passed, no career, no husband, no car. I even struggled to get my driver's license. Got it so late in my mid-###s. I still have no car, can't afford it, and still scared to drive. I'm so dissatisfied in all areas of my life. My life feels like a failure. Even if it improves, the hurt in my soul is too deep and my physical scar is still here and will never go away. I'm suffering.