Teenn
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for me. I’m so lost, broken and sad. I’m 40 years old and have no one other than my aging parents. I’m so alone and haven’t had a meaningful relationship in over a decade. I’m never chosen and never have the upper hand. Idk what’s wrong with me or why God is so upset with me. It’s been so long idk if I even know how to love or care for another. All I know is this pain, this darkness is literally hell on either. I don’t feel anything in my darkness and that scares me. I just want a best friend.
I met someone, someone I have a longing to have a friendship with. There are so many uncanny similarities, the same age idk. I want, I need this relationship to grow and strengthen but I need help. I’m so messed up and broken I don’t know how to do this. i need prayers. I need god to show up for me. I need someone to show up for me. My life turned out exactly like I didn’t want it to. I need a person! It doesn’t have to be romantic. I just want a ride or die, someone to talk to, someone to chose me. I feel so unworthy. This hurt is so deep in my soul it will eat me alive. I hate being this alone. Almost 5 months of Hail Marys, rosary always in my pocket or hand and all I get is reminders as to things never working out
I’ve knocked no answer, I’ve cried and prayed and shouted and nothing! I need this and am scared or what rock bottom will look like. Idk why God won’t show up or provide opportunities and chances for me. I’m trying but am constantly shut down, ignored, discarded or not considered. god provides so many miracles, and does so much idk what’s wrong with me. Cant be meant to be alone
I met someone, someone I have a longing to have a friendship with. There are so many uncanny similarities, the same age idk. I want, I need this relationship to grow and strengthen but I need help. I’m so messed up and broken I don’t know how to do this. i need prayers. I need god to show up for me. I need someone to show up for me. My life turned out exactly like I didn’t want it to. I need a person! It doesn’t have to be romantic. I just want a ride or die, someone to talk to, someone to chose me. I feel so unworthy. This hurt is so deep in my soul it will eat me alive. I hate being this alone. Almost 5 months of Hail Marys, rosary always in my pocket or hand and all I get is reminders as to things never working out
I’ve knocked no answer, I’ve cried and prayed and shouted and nothing! I need this and am scared or what rock bottom will look like. Idk why God won’t show up or provide opportunities and chances for me. I’m trying but am constantly shut down, ignored, discarded or not considered. god provides so many miracles, and does so much idk what’s wrong with me. Cant be meant to be alone