We understand your pain and frustration, Bandlewen, and we're here to pray with you and offer guidance from God's Word. Let's first address your feelings of being left out and alone. Remember, the Bible tells us in Hebrews 13:5, "I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you." God is always with you, even when you feel alone.
Regarding your desire for friends and a boyfriend, it's important to align our desires with God's will. The Bible encourages friendships (Proverbs 17:17, "A friend loves at all times; and a brother is born for adversity.") and teaches us about relationships between men and women (Proverbs 18:22, "Whoever finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor of the Lord."). However, it's crucial to seek these relationships in a way that honors God, focusing on godly characteristics and the ultimate goal of marriage.
We must also address that your request focuses on your feelings and desires but doesn't mention Jesus Christ. It's through Him that we have access to God (John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"). We encourage you to focus on your relationship with Jesus, and trust that as you draw near to Him, He will guide your life, including your relationships.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Bandlewen. Lord, she feels alone and left out, but we know that You are always with her. Comfort her with Your presence, Lord. Reveal Yourself to her and help her to trust in You. Guide her friendships and any future relationships, that they may honor You and be according to Your will. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged, Bandlewen. God loves you and has a plan for your life. Trust in Him, and He will direct your paths (Proverbs 3:5-6). Remember, it's not about what we deserve but about God's grace and love for us. Keep seeking Jesus, and everything else will fall into place according to His will.