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Father I chose to meditate of Death Reflections. Seeing my funeral. Seeing them playing a playlist of music that would make more evocative memories of who I was. Making them imagine my earliest memories and consider where i was, who was there, what i felt like, what it smelled like and what sounds they heard. Reflecting on my death hopefully it will help me to meditate on the same for my early childhood, pre-adolescence, early adulthood and on. I am trying to remember memories of the many lives I’ve lived! Make them flash through my mind. So that I can be filled with a sense of tenderness and compassion. I’m hoping that the meditation of Death Reflections will help make me remember things in my childhood like flash cards, walking to school, riding bikes on the sidewalk with my sister, middle school dances, and late summer nights wandering. If I have to do something drastic like write a eulogy and see myself in the funeral, seeing someone read the eulogy out loud to my kids. All this just to make me have a life review BEFORE i die. I don’t want to have a death experience, to value life! So I’m imagining it now! I want to feel more grateful for what life allows me to do now. Now I am able to imagine my death the way I would like to see it being done!
Now in my adult life I am questioning what things must I do? Have gentle movements to release tension of the day, while focusing on my senses. Now in paying close attention to what i could see, hear, taste, feel and smell. Now I’m asking myself should I do things like a death meditations. Would being in mindfulness of death, help me not fear it? Now I’m thinking in ways that death could come as soon as the next morning, the next meal or even the next breath? So now I focuses on detailed visualization of the body’s eventual decay? Doing all this now to help me to relinquish the attachment to the material world. I prefer to see scenes now the way I want it to be! At my age now; I’m longing to remember my adult life before kids, my life as a new parent, my life with small children and, my life now. I want to remember all the different outfits and distinct looks I’ve had throughout my life. lol It tickles me! Yes. I want to make the music shift for me. I’m hoping to free up some souls at my funeral! I want folks to feel empowered, and encouraged. I want them to hear songs like; when I get where I’m going and wind beneath my wings! I feel better now sense I have been Imaging that I’m near death; that my eyesight is fading, my hearing becoming more muffled. Food don’t taste as good as it once did and eating less. For me it helps make my experience of the world became more muted. Just to feel less afraid of leaving it. So Yes. Im thinking, Who would visit me? What would they say? Picturing my last breath. “What would I breathing in? What would I breathe out? Imaging myself hovering above my lifeless body, what i would look like, and who would tend to me. Yes. In this brief moment, i am imagining i might be next.
In a society that rarely encourages reflections on death and dying, many of us respond to our innate fear of death with denial. Lord let me not be one of those! Im crying out to visualize and imagine my own passing so that it can help me face fear of death in a productive way. For me I think you! Because It helps me reflect and realize that i am afraid of death; but seeing it from this point of view helps very much! And It allows me to share my experience with my higher self to help me along the way. I would think ugly things about my funeral. Instead of me thinking I was a bad person; no one is going to be at my funeral. Now, I see myself as a compassionate person! So now I see everyone else well too! Because I changed the perspective of what might have been and seeing it the way it will be! I see myself placed inside in a sealed structure, such as an Entombment and being sealed in and my Lord Jesus coming to take me home! I thank my higher self for being here all along! Helping me through it all! The fears! The worries! And the doubts! Thank you Jesus! Now I am less afraid of dying, and feel so thrilled to be alive. Hallelujah
Now in my adult life I am questioning what things must I do? Have gentle movements to release tension of the day, while focusing on my senses. Now in paying close attention to what i could see, hear, taste, feel and smell. Now I’m asking myself should I do things like a death meditations. Would being in mindfulness of death, help me not fear it? Now I’m thinking in ways that death could come as soon as the next morning, the next meal or even the next breath? So now I focuses on detailed visualization of the body’s eventual decay? Doing all this now to help me to relinquish the attachment to the material world. I prefer to see scenes now the way I want it to be! At my age now; I’m longing to remember my adult life before kids, my life as a new parent, my life with small children and, my life now. I want to remember all the different outfits and distinct looks I’ve had throughout my life. lol It tickles me! Yes. I want to make the music shift for me. I’m hoping to free up some souls at my funeral! I want folks to feel empowered, and encouraged. I want them to hear songs like; when I get where I’m going and wind beneath my wings! I feel better now sense I have been Imaging that I’m near death; that my eyesight is fading, my hearing becoming more muffled. Food don’t taste as good as it once did and eating less. For me it helps make my experience of the world became more muted. Just to feel less afraid of leaving it. So Yes. Im thinking, Who would visit me? What would they say? Picturing my last breath. “What would I breathing in? What would I breathe out? Imaging myself hovering above my lifeless body, what i would look like, and who would tend to me. Yes. In this brief moment, i am imagining i might be next. In a society that rarely encourages reflections on death and dying, many of us respond to our innate fear of death with denial. Lord let me not be one of those! Im crying out to visualize and imagine my own passing so that it can help me face fear of death in a productive way. For me I think you! Because It helps me reflect and realize that i am afraid of death; but seeing it from this point of view helps very much! And It allows me to share my experience with my higher self to help me along the way. I would think ugly things about my funeral. Instead of me thinking I was a bad person; no one is going to be at my funeral. Now, I see myself as a compassionate person! So now I see everyone else well too! Because I changed the perspective of what might have been and seeing it the way it will be! I see myself placed inside in a sealed structure, such as an Entombment and being sealed in and my Lord Jesus coming to take me home! I thank my higher self for being here all along! Helping me through it all! The fears! The worries! And the doubts! Thank you Jesus! Now I am less afraid of dying, and feel so thrilled to be alive. Hallelujah
