Awivis
Servant of All
Father I don't know if this leads to anything. Tofay my sorrow grew so bad I wrote a message to her. Telling her I am sorry too for the mistakes I made. Telling her how much she and our relationship meant for me. That home she told we had. I told her that we had so much good things that this worth of a figth and trying to get things fixed. From my part I am ready to work whit myself in theraphy and support her if she goes to theraphy and accepts help. I asked her if she is willing to give us a new beginin and we could together go to coubles theraphy and whatever it takes to fix things to make it so we could have a lot more of those happy good moments we shared and which make this worth figthing for already. Father please help. Today the sorrow and grief overwhelmes me and she is in my mind a lot. I asked her politely no to reply at all if she is not willing to give us the change. I asked her to respect my sorrow then. Only you God can turn her heart and mind so she would be reasy to work for this. This loss is same to me as someone special had died. And as for me I personally consider myself a widow now. It takes time but I can survive whitout her too. In the end most important thing is to see her whit you Jesus. Again I praise you for this deep love you have given to me towards het Father. It hurts but it'w also biggest blessing ever and teaching me the vastness of your love towards us. In Jesus name and blood I surrender once more. Amen.