Awivis
Servant of All
Father I don't know if this leads to anything. Today my sorrow grew so bad I wrote a message to her. Telling her I am sorry too for the mistakes I made. Telling her how much she and our relationship meant for me. That home she told we had. I told her that we had so much good things that this was worth a fight and trying to get things fixed. From my part I am ready to work with myself in therapy and support her if she goes to therapy and accepts help. I asked her if she is willing to give us a new beginning and we could together go to couples therapy and whatever it takes to fix things to make it so we could have a lot more of those happy good moments we shared and which make this worth fighting for already. Father please help. Today the sorrow and grief overwhelms me and she is in my mind a lot. I asked her politely not to reply at all if she is not willing to give us the chance. I asked her to respect my sorrow then. Only you God can turn her heart and mind so she would be ready to work for this. This loss is the same to me as someone special had died. And as for me I personally consider myself a widow now. It takes time but I can survive without her too. In the end most important thing is to see her with you Jesus. Again I praise you for this deep love you have given to me towards her Father. It hurts but it's also the biggest blessing ever and teaching me the vastness of your love towards us. In Jesus name and blood I surrender once more. Amen.