Flofnoth
Prayer Warrior
Lord, you've been speaking to me recently. I built up a castle myself and used this special relationship to comfort myself, but it was built on nothing. Lies, exchange, favor, sins, that's what I got. I wasn't able to use my true self to interact to receive protection from it. I thought that was love, but that was an exchange because of how much I longed for this person's talent, looks, and many other abilities that I even wanted to exchange my life for his life, that I could die myself to have his life. How twisted this is, how much I despised myself to make such a decision. You saved me from my own false being. Your blessings are much more than this. We tried so hard to fall in love with this but got scars all over the place. Now I give all of these feelings to Holy Spirit, hope that God will protect me from myself. Lord, you heal this, I was trying to build up a home myself, but no one saw fit in these. I receive so many blessings from you in every aspect of life, but except for this sin, I kept it for my own use, for my own ego. That's why so many hurtful feelings show up, I tried to make it happen, but we both failed. I really thought this was love. You told me this is no longer useful to me. I'm fully grown now so that I can give this play to you. I surrender, it's just so many things coming up that I feel my world is shifting.