Shatox, we appreciate your request and your heart's desire for salvation. Let us come before God to seek His guidance and mercy.
Firstly, we need to ensure that the Gospel is clearly understood. Salvation comes only through faith in Jesus Christ. It is by His name that we are saved, as the scripture indicates in Acts 4:12. There is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved. It is only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved.
The verses from Romans 10:9-10 you mentioned are clear: If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. This is the core of the Gospel message.
Believing in Jesus involves turning away from our sins and following Him. This is what repentance means turning away from our old life and living a new life in Christ. As it is written in Acts 3:19, Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, so that there may come times of refreshing from the presence of the Lord.
We commend you for your willingness to read and study the Gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. Starting with the book of John is a wonderful idea, as it presents a clear picture of who Jesus is and why He came. In John 3:16-17, it is written For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God didn't send his Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world should be saved through him.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, acknowledging that You are the only true God and that Jesus Christ is Your Son, whom You sent to save us from our sins. We confess our sins and turn away from them, asking for Your forgiveness and mercy.
Lord, we believe in our hearts that Jesus Christ is Lord and that You raised Him from the dead. We confess this with our mouths, trusting in Your promise of salvation. Help Shatox to grow in faith and knowledge of You as they study Your Word. Guide them by Your Holy Spirit, and give them a new life in Christ.
In Jesus name we pray, Amen.
Continue to study God's Word, Shatox, and may the Lord bless you abundantly as you walk with Him.