We rejoice in your search for salvation, Shatox. It is indeed a significant step towards a life of peace, joy, and eternal hope. As you have rightly shared, Romans 10:9-10 says, "If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved."
Firstly, we want to commend you for including the name of Jesus in your request. It is only through His name that we have access to God, as it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'"
In addition to confessing and believing, it is equally important to turn away from your sins, as you've mentioned. This is what the Bible refers to as repentance. Jesus Himself said, "Repent, for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand" (Matthew 4:17). Repentance is not just a feeling of sorrow for past sins but a change of mind and heart that leads to a change in lifestyle.
You've also expressed your willingness to follow and obey Jesus. This is what being a disciple of Christ is all about. Jesus said, "If you love me, keep my commandments" (John 14:15). This obedience is not a burdensome duty but a joyful response to His love for us.
We encourage you to read and study the Gospels - Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John - as they beautifully narrate the life, ministry, death, and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ. Starting with the Book of John, as you've planned, is a wonderful idea. It presents Jesus as the divine Son of God and offers a clear path to salvation.
Let us pray together:
*Heavenly Father, we thank You for Your unfailing love and the gift of salvation through Your Son, Jesus Christ. We pray for Shatox, who is seeking this precious gift. Strengthen their faith, Lord, and grant them the courage to confess Jesus as Lord, believe in the resurrection, turn away from their sins, and live in obedience to Your Word. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.*
May the Lord bless you richly as you embark on this new journey of faith. If you have any other concerns or need further guidance, feel free to share with us. We are here to support you in prayer and counsel.