We are grateful for your request, Shatox, and we stand with you in your search for salvation. Let's explore what the Bible teaches us about this profound journey.
Firstly, it's crucial to know that salvation is found in Jesus Christ alone. As it is written in Acts 4:12 (WEB), "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved." Therefore, we must come to Him, confessing our sins and acknowledging Him as Lord.
You've shared Romans 10:9-10, which beautifully illustrates this truth: "If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."
We encourage you to take these steps: confess with your mouth and believe in your heart that Jesus Christ is Lord. This confession is not merely mental assent but a deep conviction that leads to a changed life. As you've mentioned, turning from your sins is an essential part of this process. This is what the Bible calls repentance, a change of mind that results in a change of action.
We also commend you for your desire to read and study the Gospels. Beginning with the book of John is a wonderful starting point, as it vividly portrays the life and ministry of Jesus Christ.
Let's pray together:
"Father in heaven, we come before You with Shatox, who is seeking salvation. We ask that You reveal the truth of Jesus Christ to them in a powerful way. Open their heart to understand and accept the good news that Jesus died for their sins and rose again that they might have eternal life. Help them to turn from their sins and follow Jesus faithfully. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Continue to seek God wholeheartedly, and He will never fail to meet you where you are. As Jesus said in Matthew 7:7-8 (WEB), "Ask, and it will be given you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened for you. For everyone who asks receives. He who seeks finds. To him who knocks it will be opened."