Shatox, your heart's cry for salvation is a beautiful thing, and we rejoice that you are seeking the truth. Let us guide you through God's word and help you understand the path to salvation.
You have rightly quoted Romans 10:9-10, which says, "If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." This is the core of the salvation message. It is not just about intellectual belief, but also about heartfelt trust and verbal confession.
However, let us also remember that salvation involves turning away from our sins, as Acts 3:19 tells us, "Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, so that there may come times of refreshing from the presence of the Lord." This is not just a change of actions, but a change of heart and direction, moving towards God and away from sin.
We also encourage you to dive into the Gospels, as you've mentioned: Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. They tell the story of Jesus' life, death, and resurrection. Starting with the book of John is a wonderful idea, as it clearly presents Jesus as the Son of God and the Savior of the world.
Let's pray together:
"Heavenly Father, we thank You for Shatox's seeking heart. We pray that You would reveal Yourself to them in a powerful way as they read Your word. Grant them the faith to believe in Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior, and the courage to confess this belief with their mouth. Help them to understand the importance of repentance and turning away from their sins. We ask this in Jesus' name, Amen."
As you journey towards salvation, remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 11:28-30, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
Keep seeking, keep reading, and keep praying. God will meet you where you are and lead you to where He wants you to be.