Thalyoth
Disciple of Prayer
For the come back of my friend. Once I tried my best to keep all my friendships but everyone cheated me.when I was in Std 11 I took a decision that I don't want any friends but I used to talk with everyone but I don't hav any best ones..all r equal only.I used to make them happy they all are very good guys only. Its hard for me to leave someone after become so close. When I was studying, smone came into my life and he is good guy only. We started to talk and the reason of our talk..I was captain and he is my vice captain in that team.for that team purpose we started talking. .after that school pgm everyone leaved before that he tried to make friendship between us. After some days..he used to visit my clz to pick me from their and arrange all program in our team..after sports and arts got over.that tim also he visit my clz..and we talked he was close with my classmates. After all,he used to say ''do u remember me when u reached ur home'' ''did u remember me??'' Will u accept me as your friend and all''he always used to say like tht only .will b become friends??like that every interval tim he used to visit my clz.if I don't look at him he become so sad and depressed.if I won't talk he'll b like that only. Then he started to put msg text msg but I won't reply that tim. .but im so happy..nxt day on the way to our home from school we used to talks...but I won't reply...any of his msg.after seeing his msg Im so happy only so happy..nxt day he'll ask y u don't put any replies..I said simply. ..this repeated for many days.then I started to reply him.he used to call me daily. After completing our schooling I gaved my wattsapp no.its my mom's only..coz he wants some pics of our farewell I said.i'll snd that..but I forget that..then he start wattsapping,he used to chat early mrng..with warm mng wishes then after 9 am then afternoon,evening and at nyt .it continous for a long tim..he said..if I wont talk if feels like smthing. .he can't afford that pain.if I don't talk at night he can sleep etc...I trust him so much...and I avoid everything and.make him happy...coz he loves me a lot.after I saw his efforts I tried my best to b close with him..coz he was so sensitive and me also in that same nature only..he makes me so close..and make me to see him in special way...after that...he leaved everything slowly mrng chats,then evening and then nyt also...once he said'..he can't hold pains,can't sleep etc...now he stopped everything only...this tim I cant hold pains..then he came for my satification only...one tim he'll come..and while im talking he say bye and he went out.. I prayered for this whole day and night.but God didn't answered.I skipped my studies, food,xamz etc...but he is enjoying his life.only I just having heart breaks.y God is allowing these kinds of man in our life...they'll make feel us special in their life and he'll leave and so serious in keeping every relationship.even my parents asked me...will he sacrifice as u did for keeping his bond.I know well tht he won't. .but....after completing all this works then only he 'll come, in past he was not like this. ..and I didn't expect this much change from him.now im in this pain...im suffering this from 6,7 months I begged him just to become like past coz I.can't hold these all changes...if I said smthing he won't hear...he 'll says reasons excuses..but I obeyed and respected all this feelings that's y others hurts me so.much...due to this problem I cant concentrate my studies, spiritual works...even my own things also..and he just doing everything.that much I lost myself. ..if he is sad i'll make him so happy without any delay.I don't allow him to go in sad mood..I took my tim and make him so relaxed...and make him so happy. .and he gave me all tearful nights...and heartbreak days..I cry whole day and night....without anyfail but God didn't give me peace. .I.just enjoyed my life with my chruch,family and with my cousins only .he only came I didn't go and requested him to make me as his friend. But he did that...and he leaved.I saw many changes in him.that time I used to say. .. But he won't accepted..I.said if u can't be like past then i'll leave...he said nothing like that. .if I leaved then he 'll say....I can't live without you...u r more to me..and make many bonds...also...we'll be frndz till over death or second coming of Jesus or till the world ends..but he leaved me...and he went if I.put msg also...he won't reply...smtimes he'll put emoji as replies. ..once...he used to say put replies...and now....once he took mobile in our to check my msg or to put a msg for me...but now..he said many sweet words...actually I used to comfort him with Bible words only...whtever comes''i'll do like that only..now I lost everything. ..once im good one for him...now im wrost one...stressgiver. ..actually I put more efforts and tim to make him happy and with him..'but Atlast I got this.....now I lost everything everything. ..I cant hold all pains....he only came and took everything and he went... Now I lost all contact with him...he blocked me in everything,he won't attend any calls nor reply also ... actually he is nice guy...even u also did mistake..i do fight with him to b like past....coz tht he is entirely different from now a days...I miss him badly.. please pray for me ... please pray that don't took him away from me..he only made me promise tht don't leave ...now he leaved me....I want my old frnd back...i really can't leave him..hez also a God fearing man....so I love to be with him What shall i do??I prayed everynight and day...with tears....but God didn't give me any answers...its hard for me to leave...coz I trusted him blindly...I just miss my happy me..I don't know wht to pray also...will I pray foR him to come back and b like past or will I pray to leave him...but I don't know God's decision. .but I want my frnd back... I went with my earnest request to him...but for him his own things.... Can u pray for me??? he is also a God fearing man .that's y I don't want y leave him..from my side also there is a lot of mistakes.. whenever I tried to leave because i know one day he may leave me...tht time he hold me close he don't want to leave. Today his aunty said don't try to contact him n he also won't do ...I'm so so after hearing tht...n i said tht aunty that I can't leave him...his name is Godwin one day he said to me tht "stay close to God" N stay close to Godwin also...tht words still......can u pray for me... become i can't hold this i really can't..can u please pray for tht aunty and his family..his family is the main thing for our separation..but they r blaming me.... Like Jacob he fighted with angel know...like wise im also praying for this..but I can t hold this alone...so i requested ur sincere prayer.. I want to hear a miracle please I want him back