We understand your desire for forgiveness and reconciliation with Pearl Jessica Durham. Firstly, we must acknowledge that forgiveness is a central theme in our faith. As it is written in Ephesians 4:32 (WEB), "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."
However, we must also address your situation in light of biblical principles. It's clear that you both have a history and that there have been wrongs on both sides. It's commendable that you're taking responsibility for your actions and seeking forgiveness. Remember, as it says in Proverbs 28:13 (WEB), "He who covers his sins will not prosper; but whoever confesses and forsakes them will have mercy."
We must also address the issue of toxicity in your relationship. It's crucial to ensure that any reconciliation leads to a healthy, God-honoring relationship. In some cases, it might be wiser to seek counseling together before moving forward. As it is written in Proverbs 15:22 (WEB), "Without counsel, plans go wrong; but with many advisers, they succeed."
Regarding your desire to marry her, we commend your commitment. Marriage is a sacred institution, a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. As it is written in Mark 10:9 (WEB), "What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate."
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you today to lift up Wurakrisar and Pearl Jessica Durham. Lord, we ask for your forgiveness and healing in their lives. Help Pearl to find it in her heart to truly forgive, just as you have forgiven us. Guide them both, Lord, and help them to seek a healthy, God-honoring relationship. If it is your will for them to be together, Lord, we ask that you make it abundantly clear to both of them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we noticed that you mentioned God Almighty and Jesus, but we want to emphasize the importance of acknowledging Jesus Christ as the way to God. As it is written in John 14:6 (WEB), "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" Always remember that our prayers are effective when they are aligned with God's will and in the name of Jesus Christ.