seanathon
Prayer Warrior
Hey guys, i have been told by the site admin to continue praying so i will regarding this, i have been going through some anxiety and doubt, fear/depression, but i am getting over it, last night a beautiful thing happened when my mom and i watched some awesome christian blues music and i drew some christmas themed art, it was a really beautiful moment, and i really loved going to sleep that night for the first time in months, i also felt at peace for quite some time with the radio playing christian music, it was a god moment, i woke up peaceful for the first time in a while, i ask that you guys continue to pray that i be free from anxiety and worry, that i can be a good brother to brother matthew, and a good son to my mom and dad, also i ask that you pray for my director Alan Medack, that he finds god who i believe already works through him to a large degree though he does not know it completely, he proclaims himself an atheist but works at the Kolping House a amazing community center in Los Angeles that has dedicated itself to helping the poor in that area and has had amazing results, he is a truly loving person and i ask for the healing strength to help me to forgive him of any trespasses and ask for forgiveness for any trespasses i have had in the past with him or my family. I wont go into to many details, but basically the anxiety i face is one of fear, and the typical routine of this dumb fear is that it says im not a true christian, it tries to delude me into thinking that i am a hateful person something that my family has assured me they do not see or beleive and many people love me, i thank GOD in Jesus Christ's name for those people who have loved me and even those who have not, i ask for healing for my family and our interpersonal relations we do truly love each other but the love we once used to express so freely now seems to come only at times of emotional need, it does not feel as flowing as it used to be and i admit that for some reason, although this may not be completely true but i ask for help with this, that i have not been as open as i feel i was and i ask for healing back to the times when i was a happy child who simply loved being with my family , my mom Dad and Brother Matthew. As a side note id like to pray for Dan, hes 90 years old and a Christian i believe, his wife was a quaker and he loves her dearly, but he is alone now, she passed away, he is a truly awesome man and i pray that he can find a community that truly loves him and that the christian love that is inside him and that has been shown to him through his wife may upwell in his heart and comfort him in jesus christ's name i pray amen