We understand your heartache and desire for reconciliation, Ilisiarg. However, we must first align our desires with God's will and His principles for relationships.
Firstly, let's remember that God desires us to be holy as He is holy (1 Peter 1:16 WEB). Insecurities, jealousy, and other negative traits can be overcome through the power of the Holy Spirit as we yield our lives to God. As it is written, "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law." (Galatians 5:22-23 WEB)
Regarding your relationship, it's crucial to understand that God's design for romance is for it to lead to a lifelong marriage commitment between a man and a woman (Matthew 19:4-6 WEB). If your past relationship was not aligned with this, now is the time to seek God's forgiveness and guidance.
Moreover, we should not pursue relationships based on our desires alone, but seek God's will. God promises to give us the desires of our heart when we delight in Him (Psalm 37:4 WEB). This means that as we draw near to God and delight in Him, He will place the right desires in our hearts.
We also notice that your request does not mention the name of Jesus. It's essential to understand that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. As it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus." (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB) If you have not already, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ for salvation.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up Ilisiarg to you. We ask that you forgive any sins committed in this past relationship and help him to overcome his insecurities and jealousy. Fill him with your Holy Spirit, so that he may bear the fruit of the Spirit in his life. Guide him to a godly spouse if that is your will, and help him to seek your kingdom first. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to spend time in prayer and studying God's Word. Seek His will for your life, and He will direct your paths (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB).