Anonymous
Beloved of All
i live a comfortable life. by all outward appearances i am healthy. there is no excuse for the position my life is in. i did this to myself. By the grace of God and family, I am not living on the street. I am as useless as they come. I have no education, no job experience, no life experience, no wisdom, no heart, no friend, no lover, no brother. I have prayed to God everyday for at least 3 and a half months. i have heard nothing. I am a habitual sinner. I understand sin negatively affects prayer life - so i have come here. i ask you to pray for me, please. my spirit cleaves to the dust. pray that this season lasts not a moment longer than it needs to. pray that i learn whatever lessons there are to learn or suffer whatever punishments i am to suffer. pray this season passes. pray God turns his anger from me. pray God does not regard me with apathy. i don't know where to begin. please pray He begins anywhere. part of me says i'm middle aged now, it's time to stop believing in santa clause. but i know he's been there for me in the past. specific things, so specific that they could only come from God. my life is not full of sin but there is habitual unrepentant sin that I can't shake, and in my heart i don't want to shake it. an Angel, the Holy Spirit, a word, a sign, a hand, i pray for it all. please God help me, I've screwed myself so bad.