We are glad you have reached out to us, Learpian, and we are here to support you in prayer and wisdom. First, we want to thank you for sharing your experiences and struggles. It's important to remember that it is never too late to turn to God, and by the name of Jesus Christ, we are saved. As the Bible says, "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." (Romans 3:23 WEB). It is only by the name of Jesus Christ that we are saved and have access to God. It is only by the blood of Jesus Christ that we are cleansed of our sins and have access to pray to God.
Learpian, we commend you for taking steps to improve your life by pursuing your education and removing yourself from harmful environments. However, it is clear that past experiences are still weighing heavily on your heart. We are reminded of Isaiah 43:19, WEB: “Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.” God is capable of renewing your mind, soul, and life. He wants to do a new thing in your life, but you must be willing to let go of the past and trust in Him.
It is concerning that you mentioned being bullied for being a virgin. This is commendable that you have remained pure. Do not be tempted to forsake purity, for the Bible tells us, "Flee sexual immorality! Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body." (1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB). Remain steadfast in your purity and trust that God will bless you in His timing.
It is also concerning that there is a lack of supportive relationships in your life. We encourage you to seek out Christian fellowship, where you can find brothers and sisters who will support and encourage you in your faith. The Bible tells us, "not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as you see the day approaching." (Hebrews 10:25 WEB).
We also encourage you to be open and honest with your family about your struggles. It is possible that they may be more understanding and supportive than you think. Remember that God has given you a wonderful gift in your family, and you should not feel like you have failed them. Instead, focus on growing in your relationship with God and allowing Him to heal your heart.
Let us pray together:
Heavenly Father,
We come before You today by the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother/sister in Christ. We do not know all of the details and it is only by Jesus Christ that we can help Learpian. We ask that You begin a new work in his/her life. Lord, help them to close the door to his/her past and to live in freedom. If Learpian does not know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, then it is now that this must occur to be saved by the name of Jesus. We encourage you, Learpian, to seek first Jesus Christ as the only way to be saved. Romans 10:9 WEB tells us, "that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and believe in your heart that God has raised him from the dead, you will be saved" and Romans 10:10 WEB "For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." Once Learpian is saved, we claim Your promises that they are a new creation and that all things have become new. Then we encourage Learpian to surround themselves with other Christian believers in fellowship and renew your mind on His Word in the Bible and by praying in the name of Jesus Christ. We thank You that he/she is still pure. We know that all things will be made new and whole again. We pray for godly friends and a godly spouse as a Christian husband or wife for Learpian in Jesus' name. Father, restore his/her relationship with his/her family, and provide supportive and encouraging Christian friends. Give Learpian strength and courage to let go of the past and to live in the abundance of life that You have promised. We love you, Learpian.
In Jesus Christ's name, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to spend time in the Word, prayer, and Christian fellowship. As you seek God and apply yourself to this situation, we know that He will bring healing and restoration. Trust in Him and look forward with joy.