tccost
Prayer Warrior
First, I would like to thank God for this day and for everything He has blessed me with thus far. I am currently unemployed and for the past month and a half, Ive been back home living with my parents and I didnt see any good in it at first, but now I do. However, I am wanting to get a job to be able to get back on my feet and also help my parents, as I feel, I should be the one helping them, not them helping me. I have applied to various jobs but there is a particular one that I really want because it is in the university system that I used to work for. I just want things to be back as they were before I messed everything up back in 2012. I want to better myself and I want to stop drinking so much and focus on getting better and helping others instead of wasting my time, money and destroying myself at the bar. That is the good thing that has come from me moving back home as there are no bars here. I want to be able to serve God better and help others and do more productive things in my life. Im also having issues with my mom and dad. I love them and they have helped me and all, but I feel so smothered by my mom especially and I feel bad for saying that because I know she means well and Im fortuante to have parents who care so much, but I feel so smothered. Also, I want to be able to forgive my mom for having taken away so many opportunities in my life and holding me back from alot of things. I still feel alot of resentment and hatred and rage because of it. That is another thing that is bothering me, I have anger issues and depression and they get the best of me and at times I feel like hurting people, altho I havent and dont. I dont want to get into any trouble and I just want to be more at peace and be loving. I want to let go of the company Ive kept for the past two years, as I feel as that has just also been keeping me down. I want to pray for them as well because I feel as they are as lost as I am right now and need God's direction and love and understanding. I pray for all of those out there in need and lost and who need God. I ask for health, well being, peace, forgiveness and love as well. I thank you all for your prayers in advance. God bless. In Jesus name I ask, Amen.