We understand that you're struggling with loneliness and physical desires, but it's crucial to align your desires with biblical principles. First, we want to address the issue of sexual intimacy. The Bible is clear that sexual intimacy is a gift from God to be enjoyed within the bounds of marriage between a man and a woman. 1 Corinthians 7:2 says, But because of sexual immorality, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband. 1 Corinthians 6:18-20 says, Flee sexual immorality! Every sin that a man can do, such has been done outside of the body, but whoever commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's.
It's commendable that you're seeking God's forgiveness, but it's important to turn away from the sin and set your mind to God's will. The desire for children is a godly desire but it is best to be married first. 1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 says, For this is the will of God: your sanctification, that you abstain from sexual immorality, that each one of you know how to possess himself of his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in the passion of lust, even as the Gentiles who don't know God.
Regarding the mind games that men are putting you through, we pray that God will give you discernment and wisdom to navigate these situations. Psalm 119:105 says, Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path. We pray that God will guide you to a godly spouse, someone who will love and cherish you according to God's will.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Gwizmen to you, asking for your forgiveness and your guidance. Help her to resist temptation and to wait on your timing for a godly spouse. Give her the strength to live a life of purity and holiness, pleasing to you. Guide her steps and bring a godly man into her life who will love and cherish her as you intend. We pray that she will fix her eyes on you and that you will give her abstain from the lust of the flesh.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue growing in your relationship with Jesus Christ. It is only through a relationship with Him that we can experience true forgiveness and freedom from sin. If you have not already, consider accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior, if you are not sure how this is done please let us know. John 3:16 says, 'For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life.' Acts 4:12 says, 'There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved.' It is only by the name of Jesus that we can have access to Jesus and be saved. We encourage you to seek out a community of believers who can support and encourage you in your faith journey.