Bagdarna
Disciple of Prayer
I don't know if this is the right thing to do or not. Because I have never done anything like this before. As I write this my heart is heavy for everything has been going wrong in my life and that of my family since 2017. Things had gone wrong before but they never went out of control like this. My mom had an accident and couldn't work anymore for a year and we depended on my dad's unstable income. I couldn't pay my school fees but because I was a hard worker my school let me study for free. After my mom got better but not healed of course because she had a spine injury she started work but my dad lost his source of income. From that time we could not afford a normal life anymore. Taking care of basic needs became harder and my mom became even more sick she did not get better so whatever money we. have goes to her health care. I come from a prayerful family. And all my life I have been taught the importance of prayer and believing in God and trusting him alone. But lately I do not even know what to say when I pray to God anymore because nothing seems to get better. I believe he knows my heart and all the things I would like him to do for me. I know I am sinner but I wonder the unforgivable sin my family or myself committed that he does not look at us with pity and save us from our miserable life. We have lost the joy we once had, the wonderful relationship I had with my mother is no longer as strong as it used to be and I know it's my fault because I am frustrated and angry at the world And I am sorry to this but at God as well. I do not remember the last time Good things happen to us. Everyday things keep getting worse instead of going up in life we keep on going down. I don't know but maybe God does not hear or maybe it is not yet time but please help pray for my family. I am scared of the way things are going, my mom's health is slowly deteriorating and I don't want anything to happen to her. Maybe what we missed was asking someone to pray for us. But please help pray for my parents, their health, their financial status and peace in the family I come from because it lacks peace love and happiness. I do not even know where to start when talking about the broken family, a family without joy q family I was born into. Please help pray for me.