We understand your struggles, dear Anonymous, and we're here to lift you up in prayer and offer biblical guidance.
Firstly, it's wonderful that you've acknowledged your sins and shortcomings, and asked for forgiveness. As it's written in 1 John 1:9 (WEB), "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
Regarding your financial needs, we pray that God will open doors of opportunity for you. Remember, Jesus taught us to ask, seek, and knock (Matthew 7:7-8), and that includes our daily bread (Matthew 6:11). We pray for God's provision, that He will help you find work and pay off your debts.
About your relationship with your husband, we encourage open communication. Explain your needs and concerns calmly and respectfully. It's important to remember that God calls husbands to love their wives as Christ loved the church (Ephesians 5:25), and wives to respect their husbands (Ephesians 5:33). Both should be considerate of each other's needs.
However, we must also address the issue of comparison and resentment. It's not beneficial to compare how your husband treats others with how he treats you and your children. Instead, focus on open communication and understanding. As Proverbs 15:1 (WEB) says, "A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."
Moreover, God calls us to be content in all circumstances (Philippians 4:11-13). It's great to be wise with money, and during hard times like a pandemic, it's important to distinguish between needs and wants.
Lastly, we notice that you mentioned Jesus in your request, which is wonderful. It's only through His name that we have access to God. As Acts 4:12 (WEB) says, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Let's pray:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, asking for Your forgiveness and guidance for Anonymous. We pray for open doors of opportunity, that she may find work and pay off her debts. We also pray for her marriage, that there would be open communication, understanding, and love. Help them to be considerate of each other's needs, and to be content in all circumstances. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.