Alex Nicotra
Disciple of Prayer
Feeling very sad today over my stepdad's condition. Disconsolate and whimpery, he is a shadow of the vibrant, uplifting person I once knew three decades ago after I lost my biological family members to tragedy. He cannot stand or walk, and I have trouble understanding his speech or what he wants half the time. I fear he has some form of dementia. Mercifully he still knows who I am; I hope that doesn't go away. He was wanting me to help him stand up: something I really wish I could do. But I'm not strong enough on my own to help him stand up, and even if I were, his legs will not support him. I'm not given to open expression, but I feel a flood of tears and grief on the inside, and feel very much alone in bearing that. The only other one we have is my stepbrother, who though kind, helpful, and loyal to us both is not a believer, and has his own set of issues. And I personally get tired of the burden of praying. Please pray that somehow, the Lord will provide an ongoing covering of prayer to help me in my prayer burden, and deliver all of us. "Lord I believe, help Thou my unbelief."